So last night I came home. My dogs, super happy to see me, and reciprocated their enthusiasm. Giving them lots of attention. She said hi when I walked in and I said hi back. But quickly returned my attention to the dogs. She went outside to smoke, and I called my sister and talked cooking while I did some chores upstairs. When I finished, I came down as she was going upstairs to bed. We did not talk about the future living arrangements. I made sure I seemed happy, and that I had things to do. This is a change from me looking for her to say something, or feeling sorry for myself.

I still do feel that way, but I am trying not to show her. I am trying to stick to the rules. But I just started so I am still commiting them. I think I have read just the rules 4 times yesterday, and 2 times today.

As a side note, I wish I could edit the spelling and wording on some of what I wrote. It is the first time I have written it down, and I think I was thinking faster than I was typing, lol.


Me:36
Her:35
together 11yrs
M 7 1/2yrs
lived together 10yrs
2dogs 2cats
Mortgage on a house

bomb dropped 01/12/14
Separate bedrooms/W stays here some nights
I want to stay married