I think i am driven to it by the feeling of being totally out of control.
Of course you feel that way, we ALL do. How can one person so thoroughly mess up our lives, our plans, our futures? Here's the thing- you cannot control your W or your M. You CAN control YOU. So that's where you need to turn your focus. It's easier said than done, I have certainly had my own slip-ups and backslides. But once you get to the point that you realize that you really can only control your own life and you leave your W to her journey, things get a LOT easier for you from that point on!
