I'm making the changes for me. They will continue. My self esteem is up, I'm being more social, getting my work done, working on things I need to do-for me. It's going good.
I'm just thinking that we do need a legal split to figure things out for ourselves and what we are going to do for us if there's another chance for us together. But maybe live our own separate lives to figure it out.
Being stuck in limbo while she has an affair isn't working for me. I'm a patient person for the most part but the wait is grinding me down.
Since I live and work for her parents I'm not sure what'll happen. I know they love the work I do. I think they'll give me the choice to stay or go but I could be wrong. This is a current worry. I love this job and this area. I have something lined up if they do tell me to go and I decide to stay in the area. I wanted to move back to the city she's in but that was on the hope of getting back together because it won't happen here.
Things have changed in me recently-lost some hope(I believe it was false hope anyway), more social, being my normal acting self again, old hobbies, new friends, reconnecting with friends, different way of thinking, etc. I feel good about myself and it's for myself.
