New to This - An English Man In Trouble

[Hadlee58]

Just Journalling:

Keeping on this week doing my own thing, i have found some new gears at work which is helping me keep busy and making me feel alive and positive. W and i havent had any major discussions this week i have kept pretty much to myself (busy and happy). She has been off work for a couple of days sick and i so want to help her feel better but have tried to distance myself from it (hard to do!). I certainly havent done nothing but as we say looked out for her as a friend (made dinners, washing, sorted the kids out etc). Its funny whilst the kids are awake we all really seem to get along and laugh and joke but once they have gone to bed the atmosphere really changes, who cares i am deep into a Clive Cussler and then running
She is back to full fitness today and gone back to work, i did send her a positive text this morning wishing her well and to try to take it easy today, she replied that she hopes so and that she feels like she had done a day already with putting washing out before work, probably a dig at me and i so wanted to say i know the feeling when she leaves for work early and i get left with it but i bit my tongue and didnt respond
I am guessing she still hasnt decided what she wants to do yet (She said she would decide in a day or so) but has mentioned going to Chinese new year in the city with the kids together, strange! Maybe i'm not invited ha!
I had taken the kids round to see my parents at the weekend and whilst they were overjoyed to see the kids they were pretty frosty with me and even made a couple of digs about W and i playing happy families whilst they are suffering, i didnt rise to this but this morning i emailed my dad saying i could do with feeling some support from them rather than the coldness and leave me to sort this out in my own time, i said i would call tonight to clear the air where my aim is to let them know i understand they are hurting too but i am slap bang in the middle and need time and space to sort out myself - hopefully it goes well and thats one less thing to worry over.
Its my wifes birthday this weekend which at this moment is a worry how i handle this, for now i am getting some things for her from the kids ( i had them pick out some photos for a desk calender i did online) and something small and thoughtful from me but anything can happen between now and Sunday.

Cheers H