Feeling a little down today. Family funeral and it has been very exhausting. I seen how wonderful the husband loved his wife and she was taken prematurely from him. They spoke of her being his princess and the wonderful things they had/did together with their children.
I know I need to let my emotions die down but damn it!! I want to be the princess for a change. I want to know that that'll be me when its my turn. It just puts his immaturity into perspective as being a minor spak attack on our overall lives. So frustrating that I have to play this long ball. I feel like saying if you don't want me get out because I need to find someone who does. But not in anger, in a 180 way and all whilst being positive and calm!!! I want to lose it, throw myself a right little temper tantrum!
anyhow, maybe I just needed to get that off my chest, because as I read back over my stuff I'm doing ok. Thankfully he is not here as I'm glad I can bite my tongue. He is actually being a wonderful H and taking care of kids and he organised my trip for me so I can be with family.
_____________________________________________________ Me 32 H 32 D 6 S 4 S 11mth
Never allow kindness be misinterpreted for weakness. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself.
