Don't know what to think

[tigerlily78]

Thanks for checking in on me. If my post helped you find a little peace and zen, then I am really happy to have helped.

I think we all have those good days, and we all have those moments where "the misses" hit us out of no where too, but I think overtime you start to recover out of those low spots a lot faster. Less wallowing, more dusting yourself and getting on with life.

I have just been trying to shift gears some. Be a little less analytical and spend a little more time learning. I ordered a bunch of the books people recommend around the forum and have spending a lot of time sitting in a sunny spot and pouring through them.

I think it helps to have that sense that you are working on the part of the situation that you have control of... it helps me feel like I am doing what I can to improve my role in the R, and that's all I can ask of myself. I have been applying some of the principles I have recently learned about and seem to be getting positive results too, so it helps keep the hope alive.

Your therapist is probably right... but it's pretty much the case with any MLCer, that they need to crash and burn hard before they can start to crawl back out of the depths of their depression and confusion. It's sad that it has to happen and it is hard for their loved ones to watch, but the way it is.

The depression also plays into the anxiety and irritation at so many things.

If you want to read some of the same books I am reading let me know and I will write out a list for you.

Best wishes. I hope you can find even more of those days where you feel at peace.