separated 6 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

hi Blues!. I had a small slip tonight. The weather is foul and dangerous. I was driving by W's barn on my way to the store for Medicine for my D16 for her cold. I saw she was working alone. I stopped in to offer help. It's secluded and I didn't call or text before walking up to her. so, I startled W and she yelled at me. oh well.

And I broke a week of N/C. So its back to resetting the clock I guess. I called her after I left and apologized for startling her. I told her I just thought she'd appreciate a pair of hands in the bad weather and that I enjoyed working with her so, I thought she wouldn't mind. She seemed to not care. so, I guess I shouldn't either.

then she kept me on the phone to make small talk for a couple minutes. I just kept it up beat and then excused myself. if that had been anyone else offering help, she'd have been very happy. Doesn't matter. No need to get the 2X4 out, I'm already hitting myself

This stinks. The ony way out of this with Sanity is to stop talking to her. I wouldn't let anyone else treat me this way (keep rejecting me) so why her??