Rise & Shine IV

[bluesgal]

Oh 3, that is a gut punch. My C says people that are acting out in this way are 'unconscious' to their lives and behavior. We often refer to my H during my sessions in terms of 'waking up'. Once they work through their issues, they begin to wake up and see reality. I believe that's the same thing we refer to on here as getting through the fog. It's hard to be conscious in our lives and actively improve ourselves and then see our H still in a bad place.

My C told me that the BD caused me to wake up in our M while it has caused H to further become unconscious so that he does not have to bear his burden. Waking up causes them to see all the damage they've done. She warned me that H may never wake up or it may be 10 years from now, could be a month. The unknown is such a heartbreaker and in the meantime, to get sent an article from H with such insensitivities just shows how in the fog/unconscious he really is.

A week away could do you wonders. I feel like I need the same thing. I know you're becoming stronger. I love that you wrote your response here to get out your frustrations. You are very disciplined.