Made it through with No Contact

[rubysgem]

I am not happy I can tell you that much lol, I just learned to live with the fact my husband no longer loves me and wants to divorce me to move on with his life with the POSOW.

I went to dinner, I felt nothing but disgust for everyone involved. I don't care if they get along or not. We are not getting back together. I would love to entertain a "someday" but he made it very clear we are over, he has chosen her and wants the divorce. Why he hasn't pushed it through I have no idea, just one more thing I guess I will have to follow up on myself. He refused to even give me closure, and while I did not explain myself to his mother, she said he feels I have said everyhing and his response will not change. The things I said were trying to get him home, I am not doing that anymore. He repeats his speech: I care for you very much but do not love you like a wife and never will again, I want you to move on and be happy. So.. he didn't seem to get what closure means. It's means done, it means good bye, it means not trying anymore and walking away. No speech was needed, just a good bye.

So I am in a good place, perhaps even better than him since he is not getting that I am done. No one ever comes back from being this over with their marriage. He made sure there was no way to reconcile and did everything he could to be certain there would come a day I would utterly hate him.