Reaching out for support and advice 2

[bluesgal]

Thanks for the encouragement. I have NEVER done anything like that before. I would consider it the lowest point in my life. Yuck.

I have never really been an angry person before. Never had a temper. Never 'lost it'. Other than maybe a slammed door or verbal argument, I've never had an issue with anger and could never understand people that did. I guess now I understand when people talk about outlets for anger.

M-Yes, I need to get back to kickboxing. Problem is, I have been sick on and off for over a month. I normally don't get sick, so I know my stress level is eating me alive.

As I look back on my sitch, DB was a lot easier before I found out about the affair. Since then, I've been on an emotional rollercoaster. I can't seem to find that peace to not be angry at my H deceit and lies.

My H idea of how to go on with our lives is to live under the same roof and coparent while avoiding eachother for ? length of time. He'll say "You nevermind what I do and I'll nevermind what you do". Hey genious, this is what we've been doing since June, how's that working for us?

H has also said things like "I think there's been too much damage. I don't know where we would begin to fix this"