I have been reading along the past few days and first off, I want to thank those who have posted on my thread. While it seems that I may or may not have taken your advice, I have always valued each word and weighed them against what I was doing or going to do.
Coming to the decision to say A) this is not enough for me and B) you,H, need to continue your journey on your own was both, at once, the easiest and the hardest thing I have ever done.
The easiest because once I made the decision, everything stopped spinning and I could focus on me, my relationships outside of the one with H. There was no " what have I done" or " if only". So if you want to know does anyone truly drop the rope, the answer is yes, they do. I have read other's posts, AS, comes to mind when he says he wishes W well, but doesn't fret about OM or spend a lot of time with W on his mind.
I was like " yeah.... Sure", but now I understand.
The hardest because I have lost my best friend, the person I would spend the rest of my life with. Maybe he will realize this one day, maybe not, but today I am truly okay with all decisions. I don't love him any less than I did a week ago, and maybe more, since gaining some insight I to his ongoing struggle and journey at our counselling session.
So today is good
Been a tough time getting back to living in the present.
My thoughts to you are it falls into place. This is only my timeline, others have been shorter or longer, but it does happen. I have thought many times before, okay, this is it I'm good...with whatever was happening or going on.
