Thanks for checking in on me everyone. My H was checked out at the hospital and wound up coming back to my house. Extended family that does not know about S was staying at his parents so he could not go back there. H has bronchitis and either the stomach bug or a flare up with his colon condition. He was able to get meds so hopefully he will be feeling better in the next couple of days. He looks like he was run over for a car.
I am trying to get my feelings back under control. This was the first time in almost two years that I felt needed and appreciated by my H. I know thatbitbis because he was sick and stuck here and he did not have any other options. It just kills me to know that if he could just get to a place where he wanted to try to start a new R we could really have something amazing.
I am hoping that this week starts to improve. I am supposed to head out of town this week so I am praying everyone else stays healthy and I can get a much needed break. I need to get back on track.
I have been thinking a lot about IC. I have been looking for someone that specializes in marital issues. I started to think that if I am going to spend a bunch of money each week to have someone listen, that I should find someone that specializes in the areas that I really want to work on myself. I know that I have anxiety issues. I am very aware of them know. My current IC said that she thought I needed to see a psychiatrist to see if I need meds. I saw one and he said I did not. I know that I can work through this with the help of a therapist. I have already come a long way on my own and I am so different that just a year ago. So I think that I am going to look for someone that deals with anxiety and marital issues. Heck, I would rather improve myself than just have someone look at me with puppy dog eyes every time I talk about how H hurt me.
