maybe a bit off the edge?

[dingo]

We had another conversation this morning. She told me two very important things yesterday:

1) she doesn't want to do any of the fun things we used to do with me anymore.
2) she loves me but not enough to do the things I am asking of her.

Those statements were pretty severe and are things she hasn't said before. I told her that I accepted that this is how she felt and that I understood that she needed to do what she felt was best for her. I gave her the option of not taking the two weeks to think about the situation if that's what she wanted.

She and I made a huge mess of this marriage and it really sad that we are in this pposition. She said that there were a lot of things we could have done differently - which [censored] to hear because if that's the case, why not do them now?

Anyway. I don't know if she will take the two weeks or not, though she did say she wanted to really make sure this is the right decision.I told her that she can do what she needs to do and to just let me know what she needs from me. We didn't really discuss specifics on moving forward one way or the other but i did tell her that if she changed her mind, we would really have to discuss how 'starting over' is going to look.

My gut tells me that she's finally had enough of the situation and is going to follow through with what feels right to her now. That may not be such a bad thing.

I guess now my job is to live my life like she doesn't exist and see what time brings.