Final phase of losing wife?

[kenva]

Just a little depressed this morning but I know I have to snap out of it. What confuses me is that the whole letting go thing. I compromised with w at lunch with how to handle the divorce but to me it's still a form of giving up and not being able to tell her how much this hurts. She knows I don't want this but it's that feeling inside. I guess it's not knowing the future and having a future with her because of our son and how to handle it.