Weird day. H was over for family day. Around dinner h started complaining that his stomach hurt. After we put the boys to bed, h could barely move. I tried to gently suggest that it may not be a bad idea to head to the er, even if h had the stomach bug which is going around. Two years ago H's colon burst which lead to a three month hospital stay and a major surgery. H agreed to go so I know he was in pain. We have been texting and he called to give me an update. This was the first time since BD that I had to stop myself from saying "I love you" before hanging up. I hate that we are not together and that I am not his person to go to if something crappy in life happens. I still love him despite the past two crappy years. Yet I know he does not feel the same. It just really took me back to two years ago when we were still a team. Weird day.
