Dingo, I am sorry you are having a tough time right now. I don't have any great advice; I will leave that to the vets. But just wanted to say, notice how much more resilient you are now than you were just a month ago. Your W's latest declarations made you feel awful, but you were still able to watch football with friends and have a good time. Good for you.
And, I am right there with you, trying to stop putting my life on hold, and just forging ahead with things without my H. It is sad, and it is hard, but with each activity you do, and enjoy, you will feel better, you will grow, and you will move forward, no matter what your W does.
(((dingo)))
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
Your W's latest declarations made you feel awful, but you were still able to watch football with friends and have a good time. Good for you.