It's OK. You'll get other opportunities to not talk to him.
LOL, bug!
Julie, you are doing great! Your sitch is particularly difficult, and I think you are doing fabulous. Look, sometimes you have to try and see what happens. Now you know . . . right now, not worth trying to talk to your H.
I know it's easy to kick yourself for it, but don't. Your H is already kicking you enough; you need to be kind to yourself!
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14