W returned from her Vegas trip with GF today. In typical fashion, she told me all about it. We must've talked for over an hour. I have to admit, this openness she has with me about her time away is very comforting. I continue to foster it.
I do wonder why she can sometimes look into my eyes while talking, yet also spends a lot of time looking to the sides, or off in the distant.
Being a frugal spender, she was very concerned about keeping the costs down on this trip. GF was in Vegas for a work convention, so W was able to stay in her room for free! She gambled very little, as that's not her thing, but did see a Cirque du Soleil show which she really enjoyed. Also spent a lot of time working through email. Even brought home a shot glass for me from her resort as a gift!
I can't explain it, but I've been getting momentary, comforting feelings of commitment and eventual reconnection. Like we really will get through this and be even better than before.
Then again, last week I had feelings of being done, so I won't focus on feelings, which are often fleeting. Why does this have to be such a roller coaster ride?
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
