Went out last night with primarily a lot of his friends. Made sure I looked as good as I could. He showed a lot of interest in me with winks, smiles and cheeky remarks. Their was a girl there that I knew had been trying to show him attention which he disclosed to me prior to us going, in case I felt strange about it. I ensured that not only did i not make an issue but befriended her as well. I figured if she likes me most woman would now feel uncomfortable to cross the line again. In her defense she did not no I existed when she made advances. What does seem to be happening though is less physical advances from him replaced with more emotional ones. So he hasn't tried to come onto me in about 5/6 days but instead has been a little more emotionally connected to me and my feelings. A family member passed away yesterday and he has been right their making sure I'm ok. Cuddles and snuggle in bed. so positives - more emotional connection, more meaningful touches, support in my feelings, and made his interest still known with flirting openly in front of friends that know our sitch. only negative is the less physical advances but in replacement of the above this can not really be viewed as a negative. I do admit though that it makes me feel a little insecure that previously when the no interest was their physically it usually meant that he had interests elsewhere so its hard to not have a smidgen of this thought be present.
One thing I have also changed in this last few days is my head space. I have gone from playing the flirting game to 'well now its your turn...' this I'm sure has contributing to the above but it was my experiment to see the results.
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Never allow kindness be misinterpreted for weakness. Forgiveness is a gift you give yourself.
