Don't Break Character

[Raine]

Love you guys! Thank you for those posts. I'm waiting to pick up some pho, so I'll keep this short before my phone loses it.

I totally agree with you both. I wasn't perfect, had lots of flaws (still do) and our marriage wasn't perfect. But I also know the negatives of that don't equate to the result. The equation is unbalanced. So yes I struggle with that opinion out there and get super defensive at the thought that there could be any kind of justified cause there, for me, for any of us. And honestly even if a lbs was a total cow, then the was should still get a D first.

I'm not angry at my H. I feel a lot of compassion towards him. I even started to feel sorry for ow1 last night *gasp* where before I really saw her as an object, easily replaceable, especially with my H. And the anger that I was feeling when he would hint and side step, started to lift last night when he was being so open.

I feel extremely lucky and blessed. Because even though I know I could be happy without him, I think it would be crazy difficult to find someone who is in love with me the way he is and working so hard on making things great.