Barrybran II - Six Weeks In

[Barrybran]

Journaling:

Today was alright. Last night I sent my wife my list of activities I'd come up with before I went to bed. She didn't say anything about it today. We each took turns going to the gym this morning while the other looked after the kids. When I came home I asked if she wanted to shave my face (turned down; not sure of herself with a razor on my face) and invited her into the shower (didn't see the message in time) without expectations. My wife has spoken about trying new things so I just decided to ask her what was on her mind and see how she'd respond. At the end of the day I had to shave and shower so it didn't matter whether she joined me or not.

Later in the morning, we went about sorting out some house stuff. Nothing really exciting there. In the afternoon we had some lunch and watched some TV. We were on opposite ends of the couch but she came and lounged on me a little later which I enjoyed.

Tonight turned out better than expected. My wife's friend and her husband have had some marital issues too so it's a whole bag of awkward but we went along, drank, chatted and the kids ran amok. There was a lot of small talk but it was enjoyable nonetheless. My wife didn't seem all that interested in me but I wasn't expecting her attention tonight to be honest. Now after a late night, the kids and wife have gone to bed and I'm up on my own.

All in all, a reasonable day. I feel unfulfilled but I guess I understand that that is to be expected two days removed from my wife being unhappy with me and separation thoughts flooding back. To have some affection is nice but it looks like I have to be patient. See how we go.