separated 6 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

thanks Ben. I had a great night at Hockey with S12 and the other dads and sons. I went grocery shopping and got a quick 5 minute massage from a trial offer at the sports center where my S skates (it didn't hurt that the lady giving it was a cute single mom who's son also plays hockey...don't worry....Its all good...). It was nice to get relaxed and feel pampered for 5 minutes.

I know I have some traveling to do. I need to stay in the present and just keep moving forward. I did that tonight fairly well. I must admit the massage helped me feel like a human being again too just for a few minutes. funny about human contact like that....

I appreciate your advice and that fact that you take time to read my story. I don't feel as angry anymore. But it did help to fuel a day of N/C. I am just tired and relaxed now. I have 5 hockey games get the kids to this weekend. So I will be busy. I am also meeting a female friend for a something to eat tomorrow evening. We are being descrete and no one knows as I don't need rumors of things floating around my small town. Its a long time friend and she knows my sitch. She offered me dinner for helping her with something. She's a nice friend. it will feel nice to be among people who feel interested to be with me. I'm tired of being rejected.