After writing this I realized I left a out a few bits of information that may or may not be helpful, I'm 36, she is almost 37, we're both physically healthy though she does have thyroid issues, as I said I'm seeing counselor, and I've suffered from depression in the past, but never got treatment for it. She has suffered from PPD after a few of our children, and 3 years ago last week we lost an unborn child that was far enough along that she had to deliver it. IT was agonizing for both of us, but especially for her. After the birth of our last she went on zoloft,and was on it until around mid October of this year. She didn't tell me that she had gone off, and in fact she kinda lied when I asked her the week before the bomb went off. She started seeming distant by late November and for the 3 weeks before she told me seemed so miserable in bed every night, so sad and anxious. Now I know she was making her decision then, but she just said she was stressed from work.
