Final phase of losing wife?

[kenva]

Well just had a lunch with w. she started to go over my list which was good with her and she went over a few other things which I am taking in. Over all it was calm we had a great chat and I feel good. I did bring up that I never thought we would be at lunch discussing divorce and that this isn't what I want but understand her and this is what she wants. She came back saying I yelled and screamed 2 years ago and try to push u a certain way but now you change and I don't want to live like that. I told her I was steering blind with myself then and now I want different for myself and s. We had some good eye contact here and there and cracked a few jokes about us. She also said that I had neglected her in the past which I acknowledged that I did. She said about dinner for her nephews bday that she was thinking that some time between what is happening now and till later that I can be gradually brought back into functions like that. My coach advised me to go if nephew called and asked because he said now or in the future would i have to ask for her permission?She said she had no regrets with us getting married and what we had. So things are moving forward. I'm going out sat night. Might even spend the night out.