I can remember when I dived into research about MLC. Partly because I could not make sense of what happened and partly because I felt that something had to have the answer to stop the pain and stop this from happening. And while the research helped in some ways, acceptance and time seemed to have been my biggest allies - well those and the awesome folks on this Board.
I can remember the point where I knew that I would be fine living without Skippy, when the crying finally stopped and when I smiled for real.
Life is not the same. But I do recognize that it is up to me to make it what I can. Sounds like you are there and working toward that goal.
On a practical note, do be careful when decreasing the AD. An abrupt, significant decrease can do maore harm than good.
