I woke up ready for spring. Oh, but wait! The sun is actually out now...Nevermind.
I had a minor setback and some leaps ahead.
I'm spending 30 seconds on the setbacks and moving forward.
D19 spent the night at my mom's apartment. Apparently, I was the topic of conversation about how she is worried about me and how I need to do this or do that...The thing that bugs me isn't that my mom is worried. I get that, she is my mom. What bugs me is how my mom spends her energy analyzing me with my D19 and coming up with things I NEED to do, according to her. I'm tired of so many people making the assumption I'm going to screw up. Sum up: My mom isn't my mirror anymore. She has a negative, weak view of how I maneuver in life and, sometimes, I believe she puts me in a lower spot so she can feel better about herself. She has plenty of issues to worry about in her own life.
Downer number two. Smokey is due for a visit tomorrow. I'm doing well. I don't want to see him or talk to him. I'm going to make this clear in a brief text. I beginning to see how many people in my life see me a certain way and how being with them brings me down to their viewpoint. I'm choosing to keep these people at arm's length. The girls want me at the house during the visit. But, I'm going to tell him I have work to do and don't want to be disturbed.
The POSITIVE!!!!
I have a tech writing gig!! The mom of the difficult student threw me an assignment!!! I have until Tuesday morning. I'm excited, but a bit scared.
I also have to get D19 back to school on Sunday.
I have a million things going on with tutoring and planning and getting lessons done...
But, the upside here... I asked for ways to earn my $60,000 per year. I have been meditating and focusing on how I'm capable of earning this amount and more AND VOILA! I got an assignment.
In my organization book, the guy talks about how important it is to dwell on the positive. He has this method in his business where he spends only one hour on the stuff that brings his PMA down. He keeps the sales that don't work out or negative stuff in a folder and he looks and acts on the stuff for one hour before heading back to the positives.
On another negative note, however, I looked at D11's academic scores. We have lots of work to do. Her skills in certain areas are low. I HAVE to manage my time better and be a organized, capable businesswoman in 2014. New Mirror. New Heather.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
