But what stands out so much is he said to me a week or so ago that he has the relationship he always wanted, and he realizes that almost all of it we already had. He feels closer to me than he ever has. He felt before that I never thought much of him, that he was never good enough, that I didn't love him. He said he was so blinded by the depression. That he was so stupid. That he couldn't see what he had in front of him.
There isn't a lot that is new. I'm different, but not that different. I'm happier. I'm more secure. But I was happy. I was secure.
Respectfully, I disagree Raine. You have been "seasoned" a bit more. You're wiser. You're more relaxed and, well, you are more yourself. More authentic.
And that's when real relationships are made. When everyone involved is real.
As for the anger. You'll have that for a while to come. Until you fully deal with it, it will come up. You know that though, and that's more than half the battle. I think you were right to call him on his FB posts. If they are disrespectful of your relationship, then he should be called on it, even if he didn't think that was the case. He should feel comfortable doing the same to you if appropriate. That's part of the trust thing. Remember back when you didn't feel you could do that? I'd say you've come a long way in that regard, even there is more to do.
Glad to hear things are working well. Don't spend too much time here. Live your life! And work on that forgiveness - it'll set you free. Your whole family will be set free.
Take care,
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
