Hi LB thanks for the detailed reply. I have a long way to go with control, a long way. Can't do therapy, language problems, try talking to myself.. stopping myself wanting to control then that little voice says it would be so much better if you did control it... feel like Gollum in Lord of the Rings arguing with the 2 parts of me..
What I meant was you persisted when people said give up. I wondered if that is part of the control issue . For me I like controlling, hate being told what to do.. go the opposite way. You are gooxd at ontrol so you controlled yourself to do what you want.. I have probably made it more confusing now..
so I won't say I am done.. just this week taking a little break from caring about him very much... he is not really worthy of my thoughts at the moment..
