We chatted about the kids' stuff again and then at the end she let slip that she might call me soon for another "encounter"... apparently I didn't sound enthused enough so she gave me the whole "well if you don't want, just let me know." Oddly enough, I just fake laughed it off and told her I had to go, talk to ya later.
The truth is I don't know if I'm into it...this probably makes me the dumbest male alive. I want a lot of things from her and I'm not getting them...recently I'll get sex when she's in the mood to let me know...not attractive, sorry. And FYI, the 2 times we've ML since BD were d*** stressful.
I want someone who's fun to be with, wants to hang and happy to spend the night...Makes me ask bad questions. How long has it been since I've gotten what I want from this R? It's been a long time. I used to be happy to see her, my day got less stressful when she smiled at me. Now? She's halfway to stranger, I don't trust what she's been up to and she's into being with her friends whom I *hate*.
Resentment occurs when we aren't doing what we need to care for ourselves, though we expect others to do it for us.
