separated 6 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

Thanks all. I really appreciate that you took time to help me. As I read this I seem to see that moving on includes/ has included other people. I don't Personally like that idea. I'm not one to stray. I previously told W that. Prior to our physical separation and she confidently said she had no interest in Relationships at this time and was not even worried about other people. Still my mind worries. I can't. Control that so, I will just continue to focus on me.
Venting has just ramped up the hurt. Writing here or talking To c does not. Few people actually see what we're. Trying to do as making sense to them. We have a mentality in our culture that doesn't account for this very well. I will stand until I can't. Anymore. I find myself daydreaming of being able to chat with W or getting invited Onassis date. I wonder if seeing a positive will make it so.

On another note...I am starting to get nice looks and some flirting from women I see out in my community. Feels nice to be appreciated. I must be projecting a happy self. Sometimes I flirt back and practice. She has no idea what she's. Throwing away.....