Next Steps?

[Dylis]

He was supposed to pick up D from school yesterday and hangout. He didn't call/text to confirm whether he still was or not. I didn't call/text either to confirm; figured it was his responsibility. So I just asked the teacher that if by 5:45 he doesn't show call me and I'll come get her. He doesn't show. He finally calls around 8pm, he said, "Sorry, we left Orlando later than anticipated, may I still swing by to see D?" I wanted to say no but my D hasn't seen him in over a week and she has been asking to see him. So I said yes. He showed about 8:45, said hi, he came over with a cousin visiting from out of country who wanted to see me and D and to give us our gifts. They didn't stay long 10 maybe 15 minutes, maybe becaue I wasn't being hospitable (I wasn't in the mood), but I was cordial. And I made sure that I sounded and looked happy both over the phone and in person. But then the cousin asked me how was I. For some reason whenever someone asks me "how are you", I can't help but want to tell them the truth. I'm not good, I'm depressed, I'm scared, I'm overwhelmed, etc. So of course, I was taken aback, and I felt the expression change on my face. But through a clenched fake smile I said I'm okay. I know H noticed because I felt him and seen him (through peripheral) staring and waiting for my response.

I feel like this was a mistake. I shouldn't have let him come see her. I can't let him think that what he did was okay, because it wasn't. I did not mention or show that I was angry about him not picking her up and not contacting me when he realized he wouldn't be able to pick her up. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction.

Did I do good?