my wife left the house.

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Hello people, I am going to let you know at what point we are....we married 3 years ago and being together 4 1/2 years.

My W left this last thursday the house and 3 days later she asked me for divorce and said she doesnt want to be with me anymore and that its a final decission.
Also she said that she doesnt want me to grow any hope of being back together because its not gonna happen ever.

She said that we will go to couples therapy to discuss the divorce terms with a moderator and to also say goodbye in a friendly way.

And we started this wednesday, she seated in a chair and when i tried to move my chair closrr to her one she said: no, I asked for that chair to be there I dont want you close ti me.
everything was so cold, she was talking like she felt nothing at all and like she believes its really a definitive decission.
she started by saying the reasons that made her leave the house...she was tired that we kept fighting, that I am so insecure and inmature, that I never supported her in her dream of become an actress, that I basically never trust her and that I manipulate and contro her to make her be a different person.

And well it was my time to talk....the therapist was asking her if she can separate instead of divorce but my W said that she is very clear that a year ago she stayed in the relationship because she felt sorry about me but she didnt see me changing so she wanted to divorce. 

So when it was my time to talk I was calm and numb I had no feelings at all, it was freaking weird, but I went and told her and the therapist the reasons why I was behaving like that (a problem with my father when I was a kid) so I explained that she was right and that I felt trully sorry about it and I will respect her decission whatever it is, so I confessed my W hoe I lied to her exagerating the reality of storyes about me when I was young.
I told her once that I was a good cyclist and a proffesiinal team wanted to hire me when I was 14 to compete with them......
I always tried to do that with everybody so I can be admired for others and feel myself more strong, its a narcissist trai.
Well so I got very emotional while I was sharing all that and my wife the same way she was...not feeling nothing, almost not looking at me, and once I finished she said:
- i had no idea which one was the issue but thank you for letting me know, again I have to tell you that no matter how much you change and improve, this decission its a final one and we will never be together again...
And then she started asking who was gonna keep the cats, wich cat will be for who ( we have 3 cats) that she doesnt mind I keep the apartment, she asked me if I was gonna bring a rommate and I told her I didnt knew yet, she said just wanna to know because half of the security deposit its mine so I will appreciate if you can pay me that money soon.

She also said that for the next 2 weeks she doesnt want no contact at all and that she will be back on the therapy in 2 weeks, when she said that I told her why do you wanna keep coming, and she said she wants to know a little more of what I did to her and if I lied to her about more things to be able to let me go in peace.
i asked her if she love me and she said, with a very cold expression and voice I do and I will always love you, I still have feelings for you but that doesnt mean I want to be with you anymore, this is over as a couple and thats my decission.

So guys here I am working with my therapist into fixing all of my issues and also not contacting my now ex and trying to assume that its over and writting here to see what do you guys think. I know I have to let her go and I will exactly do that and I will completely respect her choices but I love her and once I recover myself and love myself I would love to start a new relationship with her.

Please some opinions and advices if possible. Thanks