Venting isn't always a good thing as it can expand our anger and short circuit our figuring out what it really is that we're feeling.
Writing here or journaling offline might be a good way to begin to work through feelings. There's a need to be aware of who you choose to vent to because we may tend choose people who will agree with us or encourage our anger, and that keeps us stuck.
I think you're doing a great job, Paul.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss