You will get there, you are already on your way. It is important to measure the baby steps in your process. The other day I went to work and got in my car to drive home and I realized for the first time in months I didn't even think about checking my phone to see if BF called or texted. Then I realized I hadn't been doing that at all lately and it felt so good. It felt good that I am returning to normal in one aspect and genuinely having no expectations! I think you feeling dread at seeing your W is significant and a great sign that you are moving forward while standing. Sweet! Keep it up Groov! You are doing great!
Me:35 BF:36 Together 4.5 years lived together 2 years moved out 8-13 still "together" but not together. Confused. D11, D13 (from 1st marriage)
