What you wrote was beautiful but do not write anymore.
Is your H currently living with another woman?
If that is the case your H needs to take a lot of actions on his own before you can begin to consider reconciling - # 1. move out of the apt with other woman.
Thank god he thinks you are wonderful after you basically told him you would take him back after he went off with another woman.
Let him sort out his sh!t you should focus more on you
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13