Guess I belong here now... Part 2

[sweetbabyred]

ShouldI, I'm going to attempt to answer your questions, as best I can.

A few days after the D was final, I signed up for a free online dating site and casually talked to a few people. Actually went on a date in August and although he was a nice guy, there was no chemistry and we didn't want the same things in life.

So far none of the guys who've messaged me or joked around about asking me out have felt right to me. I want someone who takes care of his responsibilities and has a strong faith.

And as I've been going through this, I prayed that if God intended me to be with someone else, he was going to have to bring him to me. I didn't want to make the mistake of chasing after someone just because I want a family and to be with someone again.

I think we're all different when it comes to when it's right for us to begin dating. And one day, even soon, I might meet someone that I feel could be right for me. But at this point I still think I'm supposed to stand for my R.

I do keep praying that God will direct my steps and if it's time to go in a different direction, that I'll be strong enough to do so. I just don't think xh is done, even though he thinks it would be easier if he was. And so far, I haven't moved on, so I'm trying to wait this out and see what happens.

Since I am D and free to date, I don't feel that I am in limbo. I could start a R with someone else, but I don't think that's the right thing to do at this time. And not just because I'd like to get back with xh, but because I need to figure out all of the reasons things went wrong and figure out exactly what I want in a relationship. I don't want to stumble into a relationship.

I'm not sure why I still have hope. There's just something inside of me that doesn't think we're done yet. Maybe I'm just stubborn and don't want to give up!