H didn't call at noon (as we've scheduled to talk). I sent him a text and he replied he's on a call and will ping me later.
I sent another text, "I was hopeful we could talk. Whether we decide to work on us or move on, we still need to talk. :-)"
He replied, "Tonight :)" I replied, "I have plans tonight. Can you talk after 9:30?" I didn't hear back from H.
Then I wrote him the following loooong text (separated it into sentences below to make it easier to read).
"Husband" - I accept, release & forgive what happened in the past.
I have done a lot of inner work and I no longer have a desire to blame or judge you. I have had enough of my own issues to address. lol.
What's done is done and I am living in the present now with a focus on the future.
I would just like to talk to see what comes up and let our hearts lead the way. If our hearts no longer feel a connection, so be it...let's move on.
I am ready to accept whatever the outcome -whether we recreate a new relationship or divorce, then release whatever still needs to be released (based on that outcome) and then trust that everything will turn out great & just live a joyful and fun life. :-)
Either way, I am sure that everything will turn out great for both of us...whatever we decide. :-)
Husband replied 30 minutes later, "You are wonderful :)"
I replied, "So are you :-)"
I then added, "I'm just ready to move forward with life. Start living it and loving it. Fully. :-)"
No reply from husband yet. I think I'm going to give him some time to "digest it" all. And will wait for him to contact me at this point.
FYI - Husband moved out beginning of July and is living with OW, out of state. Just talked for first time on phone in Dec & only after H found out I went to see attorney (w/very little prior email/text communication).
I welcome any thoughts and/or perspectives you may want to share. And if any vets feel strongly that I'm making things worse, I'd love to hear your insights.
