Wouldn't wish this on anyone

[artsy]

He just left after we spent the day together- ate breakfast and then ran some errands. I kept it super light and easy breezy! I need to get back to my usually carefree self (darn near impossible when you're hurting like crazy, as everyone here knows).

We genuinely had a good time. As with every encounter, he hugs me, kisses me and tells me he loves me before he leaves.

He's not coming home any time soon- I know this will be at least 6 months, but am trying not to think about timelines. I can't wrap my head around the mentality of wanting to stay, but leaving any way (I know it's rooted in fear, but I don't think I could do it. Maybe he's actually stronger than I am...?)

So, I can only control me. I will carry on as if he's not in the picture until there is more interaction, I guess! (Way easier said than done!!)