Thanks. It feels as if I'm at the stage of acceptance now, which feels a whole lot better than despair, bewilderment & hopelessness. So, what I'm feeling now is.....
"It is what it is" and "I am where I am"
I am also starting to feel courage building up in me. Yikes. LOL.
While it still feels scary and I know I'm not fully there yet, I am beginning to imagine what it will be like when I am there & feeling courageous. I imagine that it will mean that if the current situation is not serving me and/or my husband doesn't have intentions of working on our marriage, then I will have the courage to do what is best for "me" even though it may mean me choosing to end the marriage.
The fact that I don't have children definitely makes this a LOT less conflicting of a decision for me. My heart goes out to everyone that is dealing with this type of situation that has children, especially young children. While I can try to empathize I can't imagine the additional turmoil I'd be in if I had children.
Okay, back to me and taking responsibility for my own life. LOL
I want to believe that there's a great life out there waiting for me. And it seems that each and every day I am getting closer to want to start living it. Fully.
I'm not there yet, but at least it feels good to know that it's somewhere on the horizon....if I choose to look and proceed in that direction.
I will check out an Al-Anon meeting by the end of the weekend as want to do some inner work on the co-dependency issues I have. I appreciate the reminder and will touch base with you after I attend a meeting this weekend.
