still hopeful... no matter where life takes me

[juliegayle]

I am feeling overwhelmed tonight. Just when I think I can do It all by myself. ..

I worked all day then pick up s. We get home a little after 6 and the first thing I notice is the sink overflowing with dishes. I wash everyday but when h checked out of M he stopped doing anything. I try to leave his big messes but it piles up.

Then I take the dog out but he is having stomach issues and needs a longer walk. I can't leave S alone but he goes into full blown tantrum mode when I tell him to come with me.

Then the puppy gets out of basement and it is Ww 3 between dogs.

S still hasn't eaten. Microwave leftover which he refused. Also refused a sandwich. I ended up letting him eat a donut and feeling like a horrible mom.

Then I made a huge mistake and called H and left a message asking him to come home after work so I could walk dog.

He came and then rushed out saying it was my night to watch s. He still won't discuss a schedule but he seems to think that since he watches s on nights I work late any other night is my night with s.

So I am left with the responsibility for "his puppy".

I know it is just a question of figuring out logistics (i can buy a lead for outside so I don't need to leave s alone) but tonight it was too much and now I am feeling really alone.