I think we all go through that at some point in our sitch! It can be incredibly frustrating dealing with a WAS, especially if they're in MLC too. Over time you will learn that he's not going to call and you'll no longer expect it. You'll learn that living alone has its upsides too- lots of time to do those things you never had time for before, way more room to stretch out in bed, you can eat what you want when you want it, etc. Writing journals is good, but defending him? That's not your job. Don't make light of what he's done.
"He will convince himself he is right, that I was always wrong."
They all do that. Even all the WAS's that have reconciled said those things at one time. I remember one WAS said the hardest thing she ever had to do was go back and tell all those people she had spewed venom to that she was wrong and didn't know why she said those things and that her H really was a great guy. She said it was so hard that she almost decided not to reconcile so she could avoid doing it.
"So I am tired of it being my fa5ult."
Well this may sound strange, but GOOD! Because when you get tired of the crap, THAT is when you decide to change things. THAT is when LBS's get serious about GAL and leaving their WAS alone. And that is what you need to do for YOU
