I am done with trying to remember how he was, what was good, what I loved and why.
He is a selfish, egotistical, cruel man .. someone who I would never spend any time with let alone marry. if that man stays around then i don't want to be married to him.
I am tired of looking forward to talking with him or seeing him and then being smacked down because he comes with his agenda and is angry and irritable. I am tired of this scewing with my life, not being able to make decisions because I don't know how my life looks. Sure I have my own life but moving across the country needs some planning and at the moment I can't. If we live together I move, if we don't thenI stay here.. so the ball is back in his court and he can't remember what I say from one conversation to the next and then he makes up things- the things he wishes I said.
I am tired with being made to feel guilty though I know it was not all my fault.
thanks Julie.. It is more than just angry though..
I think I am mostly done with caring about him.. I used to feel sorry for him, now I am sorry for me.. and if he suffers from his actions- good.If she suffers good. her children will not have it easy.. H does not like children If she thinks it is going to be happy families she will be sadly disappointed..- good. I hope she is miserable..
