Husband bounced another mortgage check. Sent him three photo texts of the letter from the account. I didn't feel ANY need to say a word. I don't feel ANY desire to hear back.
If it goes to foreclosure, it'll suck. I'll keep plugging along until I hear any different. The atty has been set in motion, and I'm going to be just fine. If he corrects it , YAY! If he doesn't and things get worse...it'll be awhile before I have to go anywhere.
Either way, I'll live. I am not feeling any urges, and I have no expectations. Would I take him back, hmmm perhaps, but there is much I would have to see. If given the opportunity in the future, probably not. As I said in the beginning , if I let go, I can't go back.
I have guilt over my daughters, and wish their family were in tact .
I know what I would have done differently, and of what I'm proud. I know what I want, and what I would not sacrifice. I will always keep learning and working on myself. I will NOT allow myself to get ugly or spiteful. It would be detrimental to our children and to each other. I will be someone of whom I'd be proud to know. The person my dog's believe I am.
Yes, you all it is HIS issue. He will have to deal with his behavior and decisions . I can honestly look back at the past eight and a half months and say I felt all the emotions, and released them in a healthy manner. I have not acted or behaved in a way of which I would be ashamed, towards my H.
I can hold my head up high and move on. I could care less about a divorce. Marriage at this point is NOT something I would seek. By getting out and dancing, I've come to realize...LIFE DOES GO ON!
I will take each day as it comes and see where it leads me. I'm letting go and letting God.
I have much to do and have accomplished quite a bit today, break time is over...on to the rest of the day!
Formerly Workinprogress H :55 M :over 29 yrs. Together : 33 D : college D : adult BD and left : May 2013 Separated Experimenting/Replay
