Oh Good Lord! BA, She's a 'bag of nuts' and run, run, run! The female voice on here is totally correct. Don't get me wrong, you're a great guy. But, we all want what we can't have. It's just the way we are wired. Best of luck with the others and if you need to, take a break.
As for me.... The tale has turned a bit. Dave is showing a 'clingy' and 'needy' side that I don't really like. He buys me things and wines and dines me, but the conversation is one dimensional and getting to be boring. He has not had the life experiences I've had. The differences are becoming apparent. My bff and I went snow shoeing on Sat. and she told me that I don't act myself around him. Well, that's not good! He's a terrific, kind, and caring man, but sometimes it's not enough to sustain a relationship.
Ahh...the woes of dating. I feel like I need a break from it all to just be still and see what happens next.
GG - thanks for chiming in and giving one more female voice to this. Based on my yesterday, the whole dating stuff is simply a stress I really don't need right now. I had a double life whammy yesterday.
First, I learned that my father's kidney cancer has metastasized into his adrenal gland, lymph nodes and spine. They have cancelled the surgery they were going to perform to remove the kidney and will instead start giving him radiation treatments on the spine lesions to reduce their size and hopefully alleviate the pain he is experiencing. The prognosis is obviously not good.
Second, after receiving that dreadful news, not more than an hour later I get a call from my Ex-wife and she has discovered (through the help of D17) that a 24 year old scum of a high school teacher who lives up in New York has been sexually propositioning our D15 via online. He evidently popped up on a gaming site that she plays with a couple of her friends. So police have been notified and confiscated both the laptop D15 has been using and her cellphone. The b@stard's life is about to get really miserable I hope. Anyway, notifying the police and having her cellphone confiscated sent D15 into a full blown panic attack and it took forever to calm her down.
So yes, I think the dating crap is a pretty insignificant part of my life right now and a full break is in order.
