The point is that after she hung up I felt a bit sorry for myself when I realized that the biggest thing I miss isn't really her, it's being with a person. Sleeping and waking up, supper, etc. It's the company she once provided, though honestly for a long time all she provided was a person in the house who wasn't talking to me.
I now realize that I need to learn to enjoy my own company. I should be happy to do things by myself and go out to enjoy myself. Perhaps only then will I be able to make friends more easily and attract someone who wants to share their life with me.
2S2Q . . . this is a tough realization to make. I struggle with this a bit myself. Like you said, for a while all my H provided was a person who didn't like me very much. In fact, I was kind of nervous most of the time about whether he was going to be nice to me or like me each day. But perhaps you and I both are also missing what our Ss used to be, or what we wanted them to be.
And I am not sure I agree entirely with the second paragraph. I do think that it's important to be OK being alone, but I think it's only human to crave a connection with another person on a daily basis. So give yourself a little bit of a break here.
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I realized that the biggest thing I miss isn't really her, it's being with a person. Sleeping and waking up, supper, etc. It's the company she once provided,
Does this change your desire to want to be with your W? Would you be just as happy (or happier) if you found someone new, or am I reading too much into what you are saying?
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
