Mini epiphany this morning...W called to confirm something this morning and we chatted a bit. It was one of those one step forward, one step back kind of conversations.
The point is that after she hung up I felt a bit sorry for myself when I realized that the biggest thing I miss isn't really her, it's being with a person. Sleeping and waking up, supper, etc. It's the company she once provided, though honestly for a long time all she provided was a person in the house who wasn't talking to me.
I now realize that I need to learn to enjoy my own company. I should be happy to do things by myself and go out to enjoy myself. Perhaps only then will I be able to make friends more easily and attract someone who wants to share their life with me.
Resentment occurs when we aren't doing what we need to care for ourselves, though we expect others to do it for us.
