my wife left, but still lives with me

[tough spot]

It still feels weird, this detaching. I used to send her an email every morning...just to say hello/have a good day. I am out of the house, at my desk by 6:15am, she gets up at 6am, so we don't see each other in the morning. Now i don't send her an email......
Part of trying to give her space even while we live together.

We are getting along, but i have this fear of the other shoe dropping. Like, 'am i going to get served today with divorce papers?'. Idk. Meanwhile i just go to counseling and keep reading stuff.

Another thing I have been doing is trying to 'be attractive'. She hates when i grow a beard so i have been keeping clean shaven. I started wearing cologne again which she even asked me why. All i said was 'I am trying to make an effort' and left it at that.

For good or bad I did enough snooping to verify that there doesn't appear to be OM or anything. At least there isn't any electronic evidence of the fact. That is a slippery slope there so I am done with that.

She still hasn't asked about my conversation with another lawyer. I find that hard to believe. I am kind of waiting to see what the next R conversation looks like, to decide if i need to pursue another consultation with that lawyer. Limbo land continues.............