separated 6 weeks still on the journey

[paul19510]

Strange...after I wrote that post some of the anxiety went away. Perhaps just enough to sleep.

I was ready to be the one to walk away from this marriage. She has pushed me away for so long..... I remember what I learned here over the past year and decided to keep trying on my side.

I admit to feeling envious of those who have a chance now. But they've earned it. Sometimes I wonder if we will have a chance. I'm getting ahead of myself and need to try to stay in the moment. Sometimes I dream about what that would be like. Seems to far off to even get to. I wish she'd. Reach out in a friendly way. It too complicated. So many reasons to stay quiet until you have a direction to move one way or another I suppose....well, I am off to try and sleep. Thanks to all for your support. I would be ina much darker place without it.