I was in the middle of posting to you this morning when your thread got locked. I'll post it in the morning, since I saved it at work.
You have no choice, except to keep swimming. It takes time for your changes to take root.
Me:45 ExW:48 M:04/97 3 Bombs & 2 ReCons 1st BD 11/10 D Finalized 4/20 D-16 S-14 Going in one more round when you don't think you can. That's what makes all the difference in life.~Rocky Balboa