"Let it all go" see what the future holds!

[albamarie]

You sound better Nero, you are working you way thru. Be good to yourself.

It seems easier everyday to be detached, I'm finding myself not wanting to be attached at all. Last night H late after work H made a moment about life and without thinking I said, go to someone else with that, don't alk to me.

I was shocked and my stern insistence and so was he. He STFU and slept very still. The very beginning of anything out of his mouth that sounds like MLC rant sends my mind into instant rejection of him as my H for sure, and even as someone I want to know.

I know now that I saw the changes in him and they were coming between us. I know now that I fell into a tailspin on BD when in reality I too was already feeling love loss. For some strange reason his A sent me into fight mode, fight for my H, a H I had left for a month and was not feel love for.

The only reason I can think of is because he gave up....he closed a door on us without trying, he didn't fight for me.

That's soo hard to forgive. Along with the longevity of MLC, it seems there is no going back.